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Sunday, April 10th, 2005
12:12 pm	Damn its been so long since ive updated this shit, whats new whats new lets see, andrew he shaved his head *tear* things are good, friday i got suspended for sum really gay reason and i might be sent to alternative, figures,so those of u at marshall, see u next year bitches, gunna be at school with paul and michael, and thats about all i know, next weekend were having a garage sale to raise money for my sister's big trip to australia and new zealand so please donate generously, umm i got a new pooch, her names Ramona, and shes super cute, me and susan are talking again, all differences aside, i wish things were like they were i miss certain things, and people....you know who you are, people i dont even talk to anymore, people who pretend that they never knew me, but what can you do, go back in time? if ya got a time machine please let me kno, i might be able to go back and fix things, re do some things that i did or didnt do, make amends with people who dont believe in second chances, i miss the old times, but the old times dont miss me. Current Mood: bored Current Music: leftover crack (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 9th, 2005
2:08 pm	yea thats right im still awake, i cant sleep for some odd reason, last night me and andrew and lauren attended a 'party' quote unquote, and got fucked up with a bunch of people, it was fun, just like a normal party, i finally got to sleep with andrew(actually sleep), to bad it was on the floor and i barly got any sleep, thats probably why i slept all afternoon today, and most likely why im not tired now, i talked to john, susans boyfriend, and we agreed that we didnt want to be friends anymore, and im perfectly fine with that, at first i wanted to try to get susans friendship back, i thought i needed her, the last few years shes been all ive had, i didnt have a boyfriend and she was my only actual 'friend' and i was dependent upon her, sad right, then melonie came back into the picture and opened my eyes, and susan showed her true colors, shes not the person i thought she was, shed hinted that fact in the past but i never really looked into it and it turns out, now becasue of everything shes done or hasnt done, ive realized that shes not so great of friend, she does stupid things like skipping constantly and lying compulsivly, and i wanted to try to help her and say that if she continues the way shes acting shes probably going to fail the 9th grade but then all this shit happened and i figured well, she wont even talk to me so i might as well just keep my mouth shut becasue it seemed like whenever i voiced an opinion around either one of them, theyed take it the wrong way or think im wrong and think im being a bitch, i also got her a killer x-mas present that came with a ring and she never came over to get it, so a couple of days ago, when she wa smad at me i gave her the ring, the last time we actually talked iw as practically crying on the phone to her becasue of how my sister is such a bitch, and she says stuff like man i wish i was there, and we'll always be friends and honestly i was the only person she was able to talk to, especially when her and john were having problems and she was doubting there relationship i reassured her that they were ment to be and even tho they argued they still couldnt deny their love for each other, and she says things like somtimes even melonie can be a bitch especially about john, and that if i ever have a problem with anything and need a shoulder to cry on shed be there, and shed back me up with every decision i made, she suported me even when i was in a time of desprate need she said shed be by my side the entire time, she said shed help,and even tho we havent been as close as we were (becasue of melonie) im still her best friend, She did! i have it in writing, im "the one who always walks away with me when im pissed,and the one who always helps,i love you and i promise ill be with you through everything..." see thats the person i thought she was... that was the very last letter i got frome her, and now look at us, john is being extrememly immature about this entire situation and said some pretty hurtful, idiotic things, and even tho i stuck up for john all those times wen kris was an ass or any one else or wen he and susan were fighting i was always backing him up becasue i thought he was my friend but now he tells me that susan says i mean nothing to her and were not friends nor are me and john, and then he tried to black mail me, such a great friend he is and look at that look how easisly some peoples feelings can change for their so called 'best friends' i really thought me and susan would be friends till the end but it doesnt look like its going to work out that way, its a shame, we had some really really good times...... Current Mood: EmO Current Music: taking back sunday (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 7th, 2005
9:50 am	<td>You are a Fork. You are special, unique... and shiny.... but you just don't know it. Many admire you for your outward appearance, but you haven't truly expressed all of the great stuff inside of you. You have the potential to do great things and help others, and this will help you in the future. When you hold a grudge at someone, however, this can be dangerous. Despite your calmness that most people perceive about you, you keep a lot of feelings bottled up inside that one day can make you explode and stab something. Instead of resorting to that, you can say, "Go Fork Yourself!" Most compatible with: Knife, and Sock. Click here -- What Random Object Represents Your Inner Self? </td> (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 3rd, 2005
2:44 pm	.[EMO]. xx.Do you enjoy depressing music? ocasionally xx.What makes you sigh? depressing music xx.How many hours a day, on average, do you spend feeling sorry for yourself? little to none xx.Who or what always brings you down? school xx.Do you wear glasses? nope xx.What frightens you? the future and politics xx.Do you wear sweaters all the time? no xx.What makes you tick? when people read my journal xx.How many times has your heart been broken? once or twice xx.What do you think of Dashboard Confessional? eh [PUNK]. xx.Tell me about that time you broke that law? which time? xx.What or who pisses you off? the fuzz, getting busted xx. Would you rather have sex or do drugs or break stuff? sex xx.The Clash or The Ramones? The Clash xx.What do you think about Anarchy? it doesn't work xx.Do you do things that are "bad for your body"? yep xx.Are you in trouble all the time? mostly yes [GOTH]. xx.Do you want to die? not now xx.What do you think about graveyards? a waste of land xx.Do you write poetry often? yea xx.How much black clothing do you own? plenty xx.What do you think about pain? i like it alot, xx.Masochism or sadism? oh both... xx.How do you feel about the rest of the world? the earth is overpopulating itself into a bloody doom, and soon we will die from our oun ignorance xx.Do you cry often? now and then xx.What do you think about vampires? i love poppy z brite [METAL]. xx.How messy are you in general? prety dirty xx.Do you bang your head on things repeatedly? sometimes xx.What do you think of mullets? not for this generation xx.When did you start drinking alcohol? hmm..I dont remember xx.How wild are you in general? like an animal .[GRUNGE]. xx.Are you wearing any clean clothes right now? yeah xx.How often do you do the laundry, anyway? once or twice a week xx.Do you wear flannel shirts a lot? nope xx.When was the last time you showered? yesterday xx.Are you a lazy person? yeah xx.Do you play any instruments? guitar xx.Who or what do you rant about a lot? my boyfriend, and how much i hate my hair xx.Empathy or Sympathy? both xx.What do you think about Nirvana? i love kurt cobain [INDIE]. xx.What makes you different from the rest of them? everything xx.Who or what makes you bitter? school, emo kids xx.What was the last big decision you made? what underwear to wear xx.Are you a happy-go-lucky type of person? yea xx.What do you think about conformity? whatever xx.How hard do you work to get what you want? if i really want it il do anything to get it xx.What do you resent? a few things xx.Why might some people consider you to be an asshole? alot of girls at my school dont like me, i can be a real bitch when i wanna be xx.Do you trust others? i have major trust issues xx.Are you a loyal friend? yea [RAP]. xx.Do you live in the ghetto? no xx.Have you ever even held a gun before? yea xx.How much bling do you own? a lot xx.Would you rather be bustin' caps or rollin'? rollin xx."Fo' Sho" or "Yeah, son"? fo sho xx.What race are most of your friends? human [POP.] xx.Prep or Yuppie? yuppie xx.How much money do you spend on bad music? none xx.Justin Timberlake or Nick Carter? neither xx.Do you like mainstream music? fuck no xx.Do you want to be a pop diva? hell no xx.How many times, on average, do you say "like"? a lot Current Mood: tired Current Music: the cure (Comment on this)
2:27 pm	In the year 2005 I resolve to: Wear more black lacy lingerie. Get your resolution here (Comment on this)
1:51 pm	JUST SO EVERYONE KNOWS, MY THNGY SAYS 2008 BUT YOU ALL KNOW ITS 2005 today was a good day, along with the ones previous to this one, new years was fun, i had a great time with andrew and my sister and sum other people, then the next day i slept and sunday my old step dad and my step brother and sister, levi and angel, came by to visit with angel's baby, who is the cutest thing ever, and it was great seeing them and that night i went to paloma's birthday party and saw jenni and ayla and bridget and jackie and ezikiel and patrick and we ate pizza and beat the shit out of spongebob piniata, it was super fun, i love paloma, it turns out everyone really likes my hair and says i should keep it the same but im going to dye it once again tomarow,the same color it is but i need to do my roots since theyre all blond, damn i cant believe school starts the day after tomarow....thats super fucking gay, i miss susan but thats it, the holiday are finally over and its 2005, i had a stellar break, and i cant wait til the next one, i have a lot of resolutions.... (1)be nicer to people i dont like (2)dont hold grudges (3)lose a couple of pounds (4)try to keep my hair one color (5)keep a stable relationship (6)keep my grades up (7)dont yell as much (8)update this more often theres probably a whole lot more but i just cant think of them, i <3 andrew Current Mood: horny Current Music: DEFTONES (Comment on this)
Monday, December 27th, 2004
8:38 pm	well i fucked up my hair, i look like a flame, its horrible, im sad, things are overall good, but some things are questionable, i want to be a red head again but of course thats not what everyone else wants and i only did it in the first place for that very reason, to make a change, but that didnt work, boys suck, even though i love mine, he can still be a little mysterous somtimes, hes hard to read, i can never know what hes thinking, but that all comes with the territory of having a boyfriend, to bad things cant be like they were, just a few months ago, but nothing has changed since then....or has it? will someone please tell me becasue i havnt got a clue, but sumthing obviously had to change if things are different....but wait.....are they different? fuck all this thinking crap is making my head hurt, so lets talk about.......FUCK i cant believe my hair, it makes me want to scream, and i have to go shopping at the mall with Lauren tomarow and shes gunna harass me all day, i cant wait for this year to be over and thank god ill finally have someone to kiss on new years.. thats a first, i hope everyone had a good break, i wish it would last forever but we all no, nothing last forever =( Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: fuck idn anything emo (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 26th, 2004
6:56 pm	hello all, not much is new, x-mas came and went, im using all my walmart cards on bleaching my hair, yes i am going to be blond again, PLATNIUM, me and andrew are great, i <3 him, he gave me a stellar ring for christmas and i gave him a little sumthin sumthin............ geez i got him a razor u perverts, dude i was on myspace and i saw fembot, and shes amazingly HOTT so check her out....... happy holidays Current Mood: excited Current Music: the cure (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 16th, 2004
2:10 am	dude its december 16 and its me and andrews 2 month aniversary. i havent updated this thing casue im wayyy to lazy, and i have a shit load of things to do...like christmas and andrews birthday in january....things are suprisingly good, this week is exams and im gunna totally pass, cause this shit is super easy. friday is the leftover crack concert, me and andrew will be attending it, woo hoo i <3 lauren Current Mood: grateful Current Music: led zepplin (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 29th, 2004
12:53 am	i <3 andrew (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 11th, 2004
8:51 am	o mann its been way too long since my computer has been working, and im going to start updating again, soo much has happened, the last thing i entered was how i wish i could find a decent guy...and for the last couple of weeks ive been going out with andrew, who is all i could of asked for plus a million things more, i am so happy with him, seriosuly, i hope i can keep this up, (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 15th, 2004
6:37 pm	WTF IS UPP BITCHES??? heyyyy my comp has been fucked up so i can only update wen im at laurens and here i am, at laurens getting ready to go to the twins and see gary and watnot, itll be fun, me and aj havent talked so im guessing he doesnt want anything to do with me, and i met a guy named adam who i thought was cool but it turns out hes a dick like everyone else, fuckin shit, so once again im single and looking, and why is it that wenever i find a guy thats even the least bit decent, i do sumthing wrong, or at least i think i do, becasue theres no other reason whyd theyd be such asssholes, it must be me, as far as i kno i didnt do shit, i reallllly wanna relationship but theres no guy who wants what i want, if my perfect guy is out there id like to meet him so he can sweep me off my feet, hahahahaha i seriously doubt thatll happen, seriously, but theres always hope =) im gunna go so peace out keep it righteous Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: punk-o-rama (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
6:29 pm	today was boring, school came and went, and i went to rudder middle school and saw all the people i havent seen, and all my old teachers, which was cool, got to meet laurens friend alyssa for the first time so thats cool, and i havnt talked to aj in since the day b4 yesterday, so that sux allot, idk whats gunna happen with us, its a fragile strange, easily manipulated type thing and i must be careful from now on.......strange very strange kinda like me and ezekiel, i kno it really sux that i have to go all out of my way, and i still dont get to spend all the time with him that id like to, im not going to be intimidated by her tho, im still going to the vodoo glow skulls on friday even if they are both there im not gunna let them get in the way of me having a good time, it still sux tho no matter what angle you look at it from, the things people do for the strangest reasons..... <3 Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: pink floyd (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
6:42 am	Does He Love You Back? by BlondBabi1314 Name Does he love you he doesnt want to admit it What day he will tell you April 14, 2008 How many days you will be crying 4 Quiz created with MemeGen! (Comment on this)
6:23 am	Your Dark Secret by tinyman Your LiveJournal name Your dark secret You kill people for fun How many times you have done this 9 Quiz created with MemeGen! (Comment on this)
8:31 am	mann today was fun, i went off campus for lunch with sahar and tasha and an old friend i kne a while back izzy,who is really hot btw, and we went to jack in the box and i got his number, too bad he doesnt go to marshall tho, cause thats one good lookin kid, im probably not gunna see him for a while nothing else is new, i missed the free thinkers club today casue susan needed my help with sum stuff, then we jumped on garrets trampoleen/death machine, and got yelled at by chealsea smith and marissa,ehh i could care less what they think.....welllllll sumeone comment on this or im gunna have to kick sum ass <3 (4 Comments |Comment on this)
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6:44 am	Your Suicide Note by prisoner655321 Your Name Your Age Title of the note FUCK ALL OF YOU Most memorable line Take care of my dildo collection for me... How many people will read it 32 When you will be forgotten September 7, 2005 How will you do the deed? knife to the heart, just like elliot smith, rest his poor soul Quiz created with MemeGen! (Comment on this)
Monday, September 20th, 2004
9:34 am	My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul mylif3ondisplay goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as catwoman. 187street gives you 8 blue lemon-flavoured pieces of taffy. _emobob gives you 5 tan chocolate-flavoured pieces of bubblegum. brokenautumn gives you 17 dark green cherry-flavoured gummy bats. crashed_n_burnd gives you 5 teal tropical-flavoured nuggets. idontwannadie tricks you! You get a used tissue. mrsalsays tricks you! You get a piece of paper. nihil_sine_vos gives you 7 dark green peach-flavoured jelly beans. peaches11607 gives you 6 dark green licorice-flavoured gummy fruits. thekristrain gives you 4 light blue watermelon-flavoured gummy worms. xbleakxautumnx gives you 4 light orange grapefruit-flavoured pieces of taffy. mylif3ondisplay ends up with 56 pieces of candy, a used tissue, and a piece of paper. Go trick-or-treating! Username: Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern. (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 19th, 2004
10:41 am	yea me and james are officially over, we both agreed it was best if we just stayed friends, which i still plan to do, justin is so mysterious, and i kno im no competition against Casey, so idk if i stand a chance =\ he looked hot in my tight pants today casey agreed... there are plenty of guys out there that im just now starting to see, and now i just have to put myself out there and let them kno im looking for a relationship, or a one night stand, which ever comes first, i cant believe i ever got my self worked up about john, he means absolutly nuthing to me, i wish we could be friends but he makes it so difficult when hes a fucking asshole im probably going to head over to laurens this weekend and see if i can straighten things out with her bro(john) idk whatever happens happens and ill just go from there, im living my life one day at a time.... Current Mood: horny Current Music: Thursday (1 Comment |Comment on this)